
Part 3 of 3 · JLPT N3
箱の中のあなた Hako no Naka no Anata, part 3: Her Collection of Smiling Dead Men
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The woman collects the developed photographs and sets the picture of the man, bathed in red sunset light, in a frame on her dressing table. She tells it softly that she is sorry for killing him, but that only the dead can truly be hers. Then she remembers that today is the anniversary of another man's death, unlocks her bookcase, and happily studies a row of black-ribboned photographs of young men, all smiling in front of the same flame-shaped tree.
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彼女はその日、いつもの勤め先の郵便局からの帰り途に、写真屋に寄り、現像された一袋の写真をもらってきた。That day, on her way home from the post office where she always worked, she stopped at the photo shop and came back with an envelope of developed photographs.
彼女に必要なのはその中のただ一枚、はげしい夕焼けに染った、にこやかなポーズのあの男の姿だけでしかなかった。All she needed from it was a single print: that man, smiling and posing, dyed by the fierce glow of the sunset.
彼女はその写真を、アパートの小さな姫鏡台の上に、用意した枠に入れて飾った。She put the photograph in a frame she had ready and set it on the little dressing table in her apartment.
「……これでいいの」目を細め、思いきりあの日の赤い光を浴びた彼を眺めながら、熱っぽい充実に彼女は胸が慄えていた。"...This is how it should be." Narrowing her eyes, she gazed at him, drenched in the red light of that day, and her heart trembled with a feverish sense of fulfilment.
「ね? 殺しちゃって、ごめんなさい? でも我慢してね。私は、生きている人がこわいの。"Right? I'm sorry I killed you, okay? But please bear with it. I'm afraid of living people.
だって、いつどこへ行っちゃうかわからないし、生きている人は本当には私のものにはなってくれないんですもの。After all, you never know when they'll go off, or where, and a living person will never really become mine.
このあなたならおとなしくて、けっして私を裏切りもしないわ。私たちは、だましあうこともいらないのよ。But you, like this, are so gentle, and you'll never betray me. We won't ever need to deceive each other.
きっと、あなたもお淋しくはないと思うわ。いつまでもいっしょに暮しましょうね。仲良く……」I'm sure you won't be lonely either. Let's live together forever, shall we? Happily...
いくらか日が永くなったせいか、一部屋だけのアパートは、窓から横ざまに射す金色の光が眩しかった。Perhaps because the days had grown somewhat longer, the golden light slanting in through the window of her one-room apartment was dazzling.
カーテンを引きかけ、何気なくカレンダーに顔を向けて、彼女は、「あ、今日は一昨年のあの人のご命日だったわ」と低くいった。Half drawing the curtain, she happened to glance at the calendar and said quietly, "Oh, today is the anniversary of the death of that man from the year before last."
鍵をかけた本棚の、いちばん上の戸をひらいた。She opened the topmost door of the locked bookcase.
そこには、同じような黒いリボンをつけた写真立てに入って、若い男たちの写真がならんでいた。Inside stood a row of photographs of young men, each in a photo frame tied with the same kind of black ribbon.
「ええと、あの人は何番目だったかしら」"Now, which one was he, I wonder?"
彼女は、幸福そのものの顔になって、いまはなんの臆するところもなく、そのひとつひとつの男の顔を、つぎつぎと仔細にみつめつづけた。Her face became the very picture of happiness, and now, without the least hesitation, she went on gazing closely at each man's face, one after another.
男たちは、そろってあの丘の上の豪奢な夕映えにまみれ、炎のような形の樹を背にして、彼女の手で箱のなかに収められた瞬間の、それぞれの得意なポーズのままで笑っていた。The men were all bathed in the lavish sunset glow on that hilltop, with the flame-shaped tree behind them, and each was smiling in the proud pose he had struck at the moment she captured him inside the box.
Vocabulary
| Word | Meaning | JLPT |
|---|---|---|
| 現像げんぞう | developing (photographic film)現像する = to develop film; a word from the film-camera era. | N1 |
| 染ったそまる | to be dyed, to be tingeddictionary form: 染まるOlder spelling; today usually written 染まった. | N1 |
| 姫鏡台ひめきょうだい | small tabletop dressing table with a mirror姫 (princess) here suggests something small and dainty. | — |
| 浴びたあびる | to be bathed in (light), to be showered withdictionary form: 浴びるAlso used for showers: シャワーを浴びる. | N5 |
| 慄えてふるえる | to tremble, to shiverdictionary form: 慄えるUsually written 震える; 慄 adds a shade of dread or thrill. | N3 |
| 裏切りうらぎる | to betraydictionary form: 裏切るLiterally 'to cut from behind'. | N3 |
| 命日めいにち | anniversary of someone's deathご命日 is the polite form. | — |
| 一昨年いっさくねん | the year before lastIn everyday speech usually read おととし. | N5 |
| 臆するおくする | to hesitate, to feel timidなんの臆するところもなく = without the slightest hesitation. | — |
| 仔細にしさい | details, particulars; 仔細に = in detail, closelydictionary form: 仔細Literary; also written 子細. | — |
| 豪奢ごうしゃ | lavish, sumptuousLiterary な-adjective. | — |
| 夕映えゆうばえ | sunset glowMore poetic than 夕焼け. | — |
| まみれまみれる | to be covered in, smeared withdictionary form: まみれるUsually used with dirt or blood (血まみれ), so it is unsettling here. | — |
Grammar
〜でしかない N2 nothing more than ~, only ~
This pattern stresses that something is no more than what is stated. Combined with だけ, it emphasises that the one photo of the man was all that mattered.
あの男の姿だけでしかなかった
was nothing but the figure of that man
〜ちゃう (〜てしまう) N4 to do completely / regrettably
This is the casual contraction of てしまう. In 殺しちゃって it gives her chilling confession a light, almost childish tone.
殺しちゃって、ごめんなさい?
I'm sorry I killed you, all right?
だって〜んですもの N3 because ~, after all
Sentence-final もの (here んですもの) gives a reason in a soft, feminine and slightly petulant way, and だって at the start signals that a justification is coming.
生きている人は本当には私のものにはなってくれないんですもの
a living person will never really become mine, after all
〜せいか N3 perhaps because ~
This pattern suggests a possible cause without being certain. Here it explains the bright light as perhaps due to the longer days.
いくらか日が永くなったせいか
perhaps because the days had grown somewhat longer
〜かける N3 to start to ~, to be partway through ~
Attached to the verb stem, it shows that an action was begun but not finished. She had only half drawn the curtain when she noticed the calendar.
カーテンを引きかけ
half drawing the curtain
〜つづける N4 to keep on doing ~
Added to a verb stem, it means the action continues. Together with つぎつぎと, it shows her lingering over each photo in turn.
つぎつぎと仔細にみつめつづけた
went on gazing closely, one after another