溺れかけた兄妹有島武郎

Part 3 of 5 · JLPT N3

溺れかけた兄妹 Obore Kaketa Kyōdai, part 3: Swimming for Shore, Leaving Her Behind

by Arishima Takeo · 1,441 characters · from The Undertow

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The current pulls the three children apart, and the narrator's little sister cries out to him as she drifts further out to sea. Afraid for his own life, he swims for shore without her and reaches the shallows exhausted, while M lands further along the beach. M brings a young passer-by, who strips off his kimono and swims out toward the sister as the narrator watches, shaking and weeping.

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御覧ごらんなさい私わたくしたちは見みる見みる沖おきの方ほうへ沖おきの方ほうへと流ながされているのです。Just look: we were being carried out to sea, further and further out, before our very eyes.

私わたくしは頭あたまを半分はんぶん水みずの中なかにつけて横よこのしでおよぎながら時々ときどき頭あたまを上あげて見みると、その度たびごとに妹いもうとは沖おきの方ほうへと私わたくしから離はなれてゆき、友達ともだちのMはまた岸きしの方ほうへと私わたくしから離はなれて行いって、暫しばらくの後のちには三さん人にんはようやく声こえがとどく位ぐらいお互たがいに離はなればなれになってしまいました。I swam on my side with my head half in the water, and whenever I lifted it to look, my sister had drifted further from me out toward the open sea, while my friend M had drifted further from me toward the shore, and before long the three of us were so scattered that we could barely hear one another's voices.

そして波なみが来くるたんびに私わたくしは妹いもうとを見失みうしなったりMを見失みうしなったりしました。And every time a wave came, I lost sight of my sister, or lost sight of M.

私わたくしの顔かおが見みえると妹いもうとは後うしろの方ほうからあらん限かぎりの声こえをしぼってWhenever my face came into view, my sister, behind me, would call out with all the voice she could squeeze out of herself:

「兄にいさん来きてよ……もう沈しずむ……苦くるしい」"Brother, come to me… I'm going under… I can't breathe."

と呼よびかけるのです。That is what she cried to me.

実際じっさい妹いもうとは鼻はなの所位ところぐらいまで水みずに沈しずみながら声こえを出だそうとするのですから、その度たびごとに水みずを呑のむと見みえて真蒼まっさおな苦くるしそうな顔かおをして私わたくしを睨にらみつけるように見みえます。She was in fact trying to shout while sunk in the water nearly up to her nose, so she apparently swallowed water each time, and with a deathly pale, pained-looking face she seemed to be glaring at me.

私わたくしも前まえに泳およぎながら心こころは後うしろにばかり引ひかれました。Though I was swimming forward, my heart kept being pulled back toward her.

幾度いくども妹いもうとのいる方ほうへ泳およいで行いこうかと思おもいました。Again and again I thought of swimming back to where my sister was.

けれども私わたくしは悪わるい人間にんげんだったと見みえて、こうなると自分じぶんの命いのちが助たすかりたかったのです。But I must have been a bad person, for when it came to it, what I wanted was to save my own life.

妹いもうとの所ところへ行ゆけば、二人ふたりとも一緒いっしょに沖おきに流ながされて命いのちがないのは知しれ切きっていました。I knew perfectly well that if I went to my sister, we would both be carried out to sea together and lose our lives.

私わたくしはそれが恐おそろしかったのです。That was what frightened me.

何なにしろ早はやく岸きしについて漁夫りょうしにでも助たすけに行いってもらう外ほかはないと思おもいました。At any rate, I thought, there was nothing for it but to reach the shore quickly and have a fisherman or someone go to save her.

今いまから思おもうとそれはずるい考かんがえだったようです。Looking back now, it seems that was a sly thought.

でもとにかくそう思おもうと私わたくしはもう後うしろも向むかずに無我むが夢中むちゅうで岸きしの方ほうを向むいて泳およぎ出だしました。But in any case, once I had thought it, I did not look back again; I turned toward the shore and began to swim as if out of my mind.

力ちからが無なくなりそうになると仰向あおむけに水みずの上うえに臥ねて暫しばらく気息いきをつきました。Whenever my strength seemed about to give out, I lay on my back on the water and caught my breath for a while.

それでも岸きしは少すこしずつ近ちかづいて来くるようでした。Even so, the shore did seem to be coming closer, little by little.

一生いっしょう懸命けんめいに……一生いっしょう懸命けんめいに……、そして立泳たちおよぎのようになって足あしを砂すなにつけて見みようとしたら、またずぶりと頭あたままで潜くぐってしまいました。With all my might… with all my might… and then, treading water, I tried to put my feet down on the sand, and down I went again, right over my head.

私わたくしは慌あわてました。I panicked.

そしてまた一生いっしょう懸命けんめいで泳およぎ出だしました。And once more I started swimming with all my might.

立たって見みたら水みずが膝ひざの所ところ位くらいしかない所ところまで泳およいで来きていたのはそれからよほどたってのことでした。It was a good long while after that when I stood up and found I had swum to a place where the water came only to my knees.

ほっと安心あんしんしたと思おもうと、もう夢中むちゅうで私わたくしは泣声なきごえを立たてながら、The moment I felt relieved, I was beside myself and, sobbing aloud,

「助たすけてくれえ」"Help! Somebody help!"

といって砂浜すなはまを気狂きちがいのように駈かけずり廻まわりました。I cried, and ran wildly up and down the beach like a madman.

見みるとMは遥はるかむこうの方ほうで私わたくしと同おなじようなことをしています。Looking, I saw M far off in the distance, doing the same thing as I was.

私わたくしは駈かけずりまわりながらも妹いもうとの方ほうを見みることを忘わすれはしませんでした。Even as I ran about, I did not forget to keep looking toward my sister.

波打際なみうちぎわから随分ずいぶん遠とおい所ところに、波なみに隠かくれたり現あらわれたりして、可哀かあいそうな妹いもうとの頭あたまだけが見みえていました。A very long way from the water's edge, hidden by the waves and then appearing again, only my poor sister's head could be seen.

浜はまには船ふねもいません、漁夫りょうしもいません。There were no boats on the beach, and no fishermen either.

その時ときになって私わたくしはまた水みずの中なかに飛とび込こんで行いきたいような心持こころもちになりました。Only then did I feel as though I wanted to throw myself back into the water.

大事だいじな妹いもうとを置おきっぱなしにして来きたのがたまらなく悲かなしくなりました。It became unbearably sad to me that I had come away and left my dear sister behind.

その時ときMが遥はるかむこうから一人ひとりの若わかい男おとこの袖そでを引ひっぱってこっちに走はしって来きました。Just then M came running toward me from far off, tugging a young man along by the sleeve.

私わたくしはそれを見みると何なにもかも忘わすれてそっちの方ほうに駈かけ出だしました。When I saw this I forgot everything else and dashed off toward them.

若わかい男おとこというのは、土地とちの者ものではありましょうが、漁夫ぎょふとも見みえないような通とおりがかりの人ひとで、肩かたに何なんか担になっていました。The young man was likely someone from the area, but he did not look like a fisherman; he was a passer-by, and he was carrying something on his shoulder.

「早はやく……早はやく行いって助たすけて下ください……あすこだ、あすこだ」"Quick… quick, go and save her, please… Over there, over there!"

私わたくしは、涙なみだを流ながし放題ほうだいに流ながして、地じだんだをふまないばかりにせき立たてて、震ふるえる手てをのばして妹いもうとの頭あたまがちょっぴり水みずの上うえに浮うかんでいる方ほうを指さしました。With tears streaming freely down my face, urging him on so hard I was all but stamping my feet, I stretched out a trembling hand and pointed to where my sister's head was just barely showing above the water.

若わかい男おとこは私わたくしの指さす方ほうを見定みさだめていましたが、やがて手早てばやく担になっていたものを砂すなの上うえに卸おろし、帯おびをくるくると解といて、衣物きものを一緒いっしょにその上うえにおくと、ざぶりと波なみを切きって海うみの中なかにはいって行いってくれました。The young man looked hard in the direction I was pointing until he was sure of the spot; then he quickly set down what he had been carrying on the sand, unwound his sash, laid it on top together with his kimono, and splashed into the sea, cutting through the waves, for our sake.

私わたくしはぶるぶる震ふるえて泣なきながら、両手りょうての指ゆびをそろえて口くちの中なかへ押おしこんで、それをぎゅっと歯はでかみしめながら、その男おとこがどんどん沖おきの方ほうに遠とおざかって行いくのを見送みおくりました。Shaking all over and crying, I put the fingers of both hands together and pushed them into my mouth, biting down on them hard, as I watched the man go further and further out toward the open sea.

私わたくしの足あしがどんな所ところに立たっているのだか、寒さむいのだか、暑あついのだか、すこしも私わたくしには分わかりません。What sort of ground my feet were standing on, whether I was cold or whether I was hot, I could not tell at all.

手足てあしがあるのだかないのだかそれも分わかりませんでした。I could not even tell whether I had hands and feet or not.

Vocabulary

WordMeaningJLPT
沖おきthe open sea, offshoreThe water far out from the shore; 沖の方へ means 'out to sea'.N3
流されてながされるto be carried away (by a current)dictionary form: 流されるPassive of 流す; the current is the unspoken agent.—
見失ったみうしなうto lose sight ofdictionary form: 見失う見る + 失う (to lose).—
睨みつけるにらみつけるto glare at〜つける adds force: a fixed, hard stare.—
知れ切ってしれきるto be perfectly obvious, plainly knowndictionary form: 知れ切る〜切る means 'completely'; 分かり切る is the more common modern form.—
漁夫りょうしfishermanUsually read ぎょふ; here glossed as りょうし (normally written 漁師).—
無我夢中むがむちゅうfrantically, completely absorbed, beside oneselfFour-character idiom: 'no self, in a dream'.—
仰向あおむけlying face up, on one's backdictionary form: 仰向けOpposite: うつぶせ (face down).—
立泳ぎたちおよぎtreading waterdictionary form: 立ち泳ぎ—
波打際なみうちぎわthe water's edge, where the waves breakdictionary form: 波打ち際際 means 'edge, brink'.—
置きっぱなしおきっぱなしleaving (something) behind and abandoned〜っぱなし: leaving a state as it is, often carelessly.—
地だんだじだんだstamping one's feet (in frustration)dictionary form: 地団駄Used in the set phrase 地団駄を踏む.—
せき立ててせきたてるto urge on, hurry someonedictionary form: 急き立てる—
遠ざかってとおざかるto move away, recede into the distancedictionary form: 遠ざかるOpposite: 近づく (to approach).N1

Grammar

〜と見えて N1 it seems that…, apparently…

Gives a judgment based on what can be observed, followed by its result. The narrator infers his own nature from how he acted.

けれども私は悪い人間だったと見えて、こうなると自分の命が助かりたかったのです。

But I must have been a bad person, for when it came to it, what I wanted was to save my own life.

〜外はない N2 there is no choice but to…

Attached to a verb's dictionary form, it says no other option exists. 外 is an older spelling of ほか; modern texts more often write ほかはない or しかない.

漁夫にでも助けに行ってもらう外はないと思いました。

I thought there was nothing for it but to get a fisherman or someone to go and save her.

〜たり〜たり N4 sometimes… and sometimes…; doing things like…

Lists actions that happen by turns or as examples. Here the narrator loses sight first of one, then of the other, again and again.

波が来るたんびに私は妹を見失ったりMを見失ったりしました。

Every time a wave came, I lost sight of my sister, or lost sight of M.

〜しか〜ない N4 only…

しか with a negative verb stresses that the amount is small. Here the water comes up no higher than his knees.

立って見たら水が膝の所位しかない所まで泳いで来ていた

When I stood up, I had swum to a place where the water came only to my knees.

〜放題 N2 freely, without restraint

Attached to a verb stem, it means letting something go on as much as it will. 涙を流し放題に流して means his tears ran down unchecked.

涙を流し放題に流して

with tears streaming freely down my face

〜ないばかりに N1 all but…, almost to the point of…

A negative verb + ばかりに describes behaviour so intense that the action is very nearly done. He does not quite stamp his feet, but comes close.

地だんだをふまないばかりにせき立てて

urging him on so hard I was all but stamping my feet