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Part 2 of 7 · JLPT N2

葉 Ha, part 2: A Wedding Night and a Beautiful Grandmother

by Dazai Osamu · 1,648 characters · from Leaves, Still Green

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The narrator of 'Awarega' (The Pitiful Mosquito) recalls the night of an elder sister's wedding, when the house was full of geisha and Father wrestled with one of them in a dark corridor. The memory is dreamlike, except for Grandmother's eyes and a ghost. The narrator then describes Grandmother: a strikingly beautiful woman who never married, devoted herself to Tomimoto chanting, and doted on her grandchild, reading picture books aloud every night, including the tale of Yaoya Oshichi.

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なんでも姉あね様さまがお婿むこをとって、あ、ちょうどその晩ばんのことでございます。As I recall, my elder sister was taking a husband into the family, and, ah, it was that very night.

御ご祝言しゅうげんの晩ばんのことでございました。It was the night of the wedding.

芸者げいしゃ衆しゅうがたくさん私わたくしの家いえに来きて居おりまして、ひとりのお綺麗きれいな半玉はんぎょくさんに紋附もんつきの綻ほころびを縫ぬって貰もらったりしましたのを覚おぼえて居おりますし、父様とうさまが離座敷はなれの真暗まっくらな廊下ろうかで脊せのお高たかい芸者げいしゃ衆しゅうとお相撲すもうをお取とりになっていらっしゃったのもあの晩ばんのことでございました。A great many geisha had come to our house, and I remember having a pretty young apprentice geisha mend a tear in my crested kimono; and it was that same night, too, that Father was wrestling sumo with a tall geisha in the pitch-dark corridor of the detached wing.

父様とうさまはその翌年よくねんお歿なくなりになられ、今いまでは私わたくしの家いえの客間きゃくまの壁かべの大おおきな御ご写真しゃしんのなかに、おはいりになって居いられるのでございますが、私わたくしはこの御ご写真しゃしんを見みるたびごとに、あの晩ばんのお相撲すもうのことを必かならず思おもい出だすのでございます。Father passed away the following year, and now he dwells within a large photograph on the wall of our drawing room; each time I look upon that photograph, I never fail to recall the sumo of that night.

私わたくしの父様とうさまは、弱よわい人ひとをいじめるようなことは決けっしてなさらないお方かたでございましたから、あのお相撲すもうも、きっと芸者げいしゃ衆しゅうが何なんかひどくいけないことをなしたので父様とうさまはそれをお懲こらしめになっていらっしゃったのでございましょう。My father was a gentleman who would never torment those weaker than himself, so in that wrestling too, the geisha must surely have done something very wicked, and Father must have been chastising her for it.

それやこれやと思おもい合あわせて見みますと、確たしかにあれは御ご祝言しゅうげんの晩ばんに違ちがいございませぬ。When I piece together this and that, I am certain it must have been the night of the wedding.

ほんとうに申もうし訳わけがございませぬけれど、なにもかも、まるで、青蚊帳あおがやの幻燈げんとうのような、そのような有様ありさまでございますから、どうで御ご満足まんぞくの行いかれますようお話はなしができかねるのでございます。I am truly sorry, but everything is just like a magic-lantern show seen through a green mosquito net, and so I fear I cannot tell the tale in a way that would satisfy you.

てもなく夢物語ゆめものがたり、いいえ、でも、あの晩ばんに哀蚊あわれがの話はなしを聞きかせて下くださったときの婆ばあ様さまの御おめめと、それから、幽霊ゆうれい、とだけは、あれだけは、どなたがなんと仰言おっしゃったとて決けっして決けっして夢ゆめではございませぬ。It is nothing but a dream-tale. No, but still, Grandmother's eyes when she told me the story of the 'pitiful mosquito' (awarega) that night, and then the ghost — those alone, whatever anyone may say, are never, never a dream.

夢ゆめだなぞとおろかなこと、もうこれ、こんなにまざまざ眼め先さきに浮うかんで参まいったではございませんか。To call them a dream would be foolish; see, have they not already risen before my eyes this vividly?

あの婆ばあ様さまの御おめめと、それから。Those eyes of Grandmother's, and then...

さようでございます。Yes, indeed.

私わたくしの婆ばあ様さまほどお美うつくしい婆ばあ様さまもそんなにあるものではございませぬ。There are not many old ladies as beautiful as my grandmother.

昨年さくねんの夏なつお歿なくなりになられましたけれど、その御お死顔しにがおと言いったら、すごいほど美うつくしいとはあれでございましょう。She passed away last summer, and her face in death, if one is to speak of it, was surely what is meant by 'so beautiful it was frightening.'

白蝋はくろうの御ご両頬りょうほおには、あの夏なつ木立こだちの影かげも映うつらむばかりでございました。On her waxen white cheeks it seemed the very shadows of the summer trees might be reflected.

そんなにお美うつくしくていらっしゃるのに、縁遠えんどおくて、一生いっしょう鉄漿かねをお附つけせずにお暮くらしなさったのでございます。Beautiful as she was, she had no luck in marriage, and lived her whole life without ever blackening her teeth.

「わしという万まん年ねん白歯しらはを餌えさにして、この百万ひゃくまんの身代しんだいができたのじゃぞえ」"This fortune of a million was built using me, an eternal old maid who never blackened her teeth, as bait, you know."

富本とみもとでこなれた渋しぶい声こえで御ご生前せいぜんよくこう言いい言いいして居いられましたから、いずれこれには面白おもしろい因縁いんねんでもあるのでございましょう。While she lived she often said so, again and again, in a deep, mellow voice seasoned by Tomimoto chanting, so I suppose there must be some curious story behind it.

どんな因縁いんねんなのだろうなどと野暮やぼなお探さぐりはお止よしなさいませ。Pray do not pry so tactlessly into what that story might be.

婆ばあ様さまがお泣なきなさるでございましょう。Grandmother would weep, I should think.

と申もうしますのは、私わたくしの婆ばあ様さまは、それはそれは粋いきなお方かたで、ついに一度いちども縮緬ちりめんの縫紋ぬいもんの御お羽織はおりをお離はなしになったことがございませんでした。For my grandmother was a lady of the utmost refinement, and never once was she parted from her crepe haori with its embroidered crest.

お師匠ししょうをお部屋へやへお呼よびなされて富本とみもとのお稽古けいこをお始はじめになられたのも、よほど昔むかしからのことでございましたでしょう。It must have been a very long time ago, too, that she began calling a teacher to her rooms and taking lessons in Tomimoto.

私わたくしなぞも物心地ものごころちが附ついてからは、日ひがな一日いちにち、婆ばあ様さまの老松おいまつやら浅間あさまやらの咽むせび泣なくような哀調あいちょうのなかにうっとりしているときがままございました程ほどで、世間せけん様さまから隠居いんきょ芸者げいしゃとはやされ、婆ばあ様さま御自身ごじしんもそれをお耳みみにしては美うつくしくお笑わらいになって居いられたようでございました。Even I, once I was old enough to understand things, would often spend whole days entranced in the sorrowful strains, like choked sobbing, of Grandmother's 'Oimatsu' and 'Asama'; the world made fun of her as a 'retired geisha,' and Grandmother herself, it seems, would laugh beautifully whenever it reached her ears.

いかなることか、私わたくしは幼おさないときからこの婆ばあ様さまが大好だいすきで、乳母うばから離はなれるとすぐ婆ばあ様さまの御お懐ふところに飛とび込こんでしまったのでございます。I cannot say why, but from my earliest years I adored this grandmother, and as soon as I left my nurse's care I threw myself straight into Grandmother's bosom.

もっとも私わたくしの母様かあさまは御ご病身びょうしんでございました故ゆえ、子供こどもには余あまり構かもうて呉くれなかったのでございます。To be sure, my mother was in poor health, and so she did not pay much attention to her children.

父様とうさまも母様かあさまも婆ばあ様さまのほんとうの御子おこではございませぬから、婆ばあ様さまはあまり母様かあさまのほうへお遊あそびに参まいりませず四六時中しろくじちゅう、離座敷はなれざしきのお部屋へやにばかりいらっしゃいますので、私わたくしも婆ばあ様さまのお傍そばにくっついて三みっ日かも四日よっかも母様かあさまのお顔かおを見みないことは珍めずらしゅうございませんでした。Neither Father nor Mother was Grandmother's own child, so Grandmother seldom went to visit Mother and stayed day and night in her rooms in the detached wing; and I, clinging to Grandmother's side, would often not see Mother's face for three or four days at a time.

それゆえ婆ばあ様さまも、私わたくしの姉あね様さまなぞよりずっと私わたくしのほうを可愛かわいがって下くださいまして、毎晩まいばんのように草双紙くさぞうしを読よんで聞きかせて下くださったのでございます。For that reason Grandmother loved me far more than my elder sister, and almost every night she would read picture books aloud to me.

なかにも、あれあの八百屋やおやお七しちの物語ものがたりを聞きいたときの感激かんげきは私わたくしは今いまでもしみじみ味あじわうことができるのでございます。Above all, the emotion I felt on hearing the story of Yaoya Oshichi, why, I can still savour it deeply even now.

そしてまた、婆ばあ様さまがおたわむれに私わたくしを「吉三きちざ」「吉三きちぞう」とお呼よびになって下くださった折おりのその嬉うれしさ。And then, the joy of those times when Grandmother, in jest, called me 'Kichiza,' 'Kichizō'!

らんぷの黄色きいろい燈火ともしびの下もとでしょんぼり草双紙くさぞうしをお読よみになっていらっしゃる婆ばあ様さまのお美うつくしい御お姿すがた、左様さよう、私わたくしはことごとくよく覚おぼえているのでございます。Grandmother's lovely figure as she sat forlornly reading picture books beneath the yellow light of the lamp: yes, I remember all of it well.

Vocabulary

WordMeaningJLPT
祝言しゅうげんwedding ceremonyOld-fashioned word for 結婚式.—
半玉はんぎょくapprentice geishaTokyo-area term; she earned half the fee (玉代) of a full geisha.—
綻びほころびa split seam, tearFrom the verb 綻びる 'to come apart at the seams'; also used of buds opening.—
幻燈げんとうmagic lantern (slide projector)Used here as an image of something dim and unreal.—
縁遠くえんどおいhaving poor prospects of marriagedictionary form: 縁遠い縁 here means a marriage tie.—
鉄漿かねtooth-blackening dyeMarried women once blackened their teeth; never doing so means she never married. Compare 白歯 'white teeth' = an unmarried woman.—
身代しんだいfortune, family estateRead みのしろ it means 'ransom'; here it is しんだい.—
因縁いんねんa story behind something; fateful connectionOriginally a Buddhist term for cause and effect.—
野暮やぼtactless, unrefinedThe opposite of 粋 (いき), refined urban style.—
粋いきchic, refined, worldly-wiseA key Edo aesthetic ideal.N1
草双紙くさぞうしillustrated popular storybook (Edo period)—
四六時中しろくじちゅうall day and night, constantly4 × 6 = 24 hours.—

Grammar

〜たびごとに N3 every time ~

Attached to a dictionary-form verb, it means the second action happens on every occasion of the first. ごとに adds emphasis to the usual 〜たびに.

私はこの御写真を見るたびごとに、あの晩のお相撲のことを必ず思い出すのでございます。

Each time I look upon this photograph, without fail I recall the sumo of that night.

〜に違いない N3 must be ~, surely ~

Expresses strong certainty based on reasoning. Here it appears in the polite archaic form 違いございませぬ, with the classical negative ぬ.

確かにあれは御祝言の晩に違いございませぬ。

I am certain it must have been the night of the wedding.

〜かねる N1 cannot (bring oneself to) ~

Attached to the verb stem (ます-stem), 〜かねる means 'be unable to / find it hard to ~'. It is a formal, polite way of saying something cannot be done. Here できかねる means 'cannot manage to tell it'.

どうで御満足の行かれますようお話ができかねるのでございます。

I fear I cannot tell the tale in a way that would satisfy you.

〜たとて N1 even if ~

A literary equivalent of 〜ても. Combined with どなたがなんと it means 'no matter who says what'.

どなたがなんと仰言ったとて決して決して夢ではございませぬ。

Whatever anyone may say, they are never, never a dream.

〜んばかり (〜むばかり) N1 as if about to ~

〜んばかり (〜むばかり): the classical volitional む (modern ん) plus ばかり means 'so much that it seems about to ~'. Here the waxen cheeks were so smooth and pale that the shadows of the summer trees seemed ready to be reflected in them.

あの夏木立の影も映らむばかりでございました。

It seemed the very shadows of the summer trees might be reflected.

〜故 (ゆえ) N1 because of ~, therefore

A literary word for 'because', equivalent to から or ので. It follows a plain or polite clause.

私の母様は御病身でございました故、子供には余り構うて呉れなかったのでございます。

My mother was in poor health, and so she did not pay much attention to her children.